a myth of polyhimnia

2011-06-14T06:51:00.000-07:00

Sympathique

Pink Martini

(eng translation)

My room is shaped like a cage

The sun streams through the window

Hunters at my door

Like the little soldier

Who want to take me

I do not want to work

I do not want lunch

I just want to forget

And then I smoke

I already knew the smell of love

A million roses did not smell as

Now a single flower in my

Makes me sick

I do not want to work

I do not want lunch

I just want to forget

And then I smoke

I'm not proud of it

Life that wants to kill me

It's wonderful to be sympathetic

But I do not know

2011-06-04T04:56:00.000-07:00

2011-05-26T19:58:00.000-07:00

Toko Buku Djawa

Promenade sentimentale

2011-05-23T19:58:00.000-07:00

Dan ini adalah pemandangan saat berlangsungnya KampungJazz di UNPAD-Dipati Ukur. Karena gelap dan hujan pada malam itu, foto yg didapat blur, sedikit bokeh (eeh dapet juga bokeh??), dan tidak jelas sebenarnya konsep foto tersebut. Hanya berniat meng-capture orang yang lalu lalang berjalan, dengan obrolan yang berbeda, tujuan yang berbeda, dan gaya berpakaian yang ciamik (anak bandung ga mungkin buta fashion).

Dengan sentuhan adobe lightroom, berikut adalah beberapa foto lalu lalang yang tidak jelas tersebut. Mari ditilik sembari mendengarkan lagu Sentimental walk karya instrumentalis Vladimir Cosma.

15 Reason to Date a Biologist!

2011-04-15T21:11:00.000-07:00

1. We are experts on sexual selection and reproduction

2 .We know anatomy well.(know what works and where)

3. We believe that if you take U and I out of EVOLUTION, you get a TON of LOVE

4. We are always willing to experiment

5. We certainly have a way with words.

6. We do everything 10x 40x 100x bigger and better

7. We're trained to follow instructions with flawless accuracy!

8. Can go through a 300 page book in a day.

9. We believe that only seeing is believing.

10. We're smart.

11.We’ll find genetic, physiological and evolutionary excuse(explanation) for every panic attack or strange behavior

12. We are used to working long hours

13. We're not afraid of organic liquids of all sorts, or of anything alive for that matter.

14. We believe that any kind of organism and (almost)every action is normal and acceptable.

15. We believe that most of the times simplicity brings out perfection.

(from : http://moudz.blogspot.com/2009/09/15-reasons-to-date-biologist.html )

OH WELL..

2011-01-21T19:11:00.000-08:00

........

"in the end i'm just a dreamer"

t h is is ivy league

2011-01-15T19:00:00.000-08:00

this is ivy league (2005) -
one of my favorite indie band. formed by the brilliant duo, Ryland Blackinton and Alex Suarez (member of Cobra Starship). their songs sound gentle and relaxing. i like it.

it's a pleasure to enjoy their albums. so let me share these:
This is ivy League - This is ivy League || This is ivy League - London Bridges EP

welcome 2011!

2011-01-09T19:48:00.000-08:00

hell no, 2011 is nothing but a number. geez, why 2011 come too fast? when the others joyfully make a list of their wishes, goals, and resolution, unfortunately, mine don't have any. PLANLESS. so like me. idk, i just can't feel any enjoyment, even slightest.
screw you 2011!!!! (hahaha, weirdo.)
ciao ;p

*2011 please be good to me*

Nara

2010-09-25T03:10:00.000-07:00

it's likely about recalling childhood memories:

Nara, Yoshimoto. A genius Japanese contemporary artist. Nara depicted his unique artwork as a cute yet horror-like imagery. The innocuous figures appear to be cute but seemingly rebellious with her large-eyed and even sleepy-eyed, a hate expression.

Somehow, I fell the girls all seem up to something. Just completely unique.

and this is me. haha.
a sleepy-eyed girl.

2010-08-15T21:43:00.000-07:00

I'm young and insecure.
I'm the most miserable person who ever lived.
I'm a nut, dumb, potty, dotty, loony....
you name it.

Jim Tierney:

2010-08-15T18:56:00.000-07:00

i found it so true. but my pen always keep the paper plain.
perhaps it's broke. i thought it cannot be used to write, at first.
i bite it. throw it. no, i swallow it. so frustrating.
damn bored. it's killing me.

well then maybe i should buy a sword.
(sorry Mr.Tierney I hope I'm not dissapoint you.)

2010-08-10T19:49:00.000-07:00

"What a mystery this world, one day you love them and the next day you want to kill them a thousand times over. "

In all there were five of them. they had only one thing in common: a hatred for Governor Odious. The first was an ex-slave, Otta Benga. (…) Then there was the indian, who when he was anxious always stroke his brown. (…) Luigi was an explosives expert. (…) Next was the english naturalist Charles Darwin. (…) Finally very little was know about the gasp-toothed masked Bandit, except that he and his twin brother, the blue bandit, had escape execution from the spanish governour Odious.

The Fall (2006) - Tarsem

this film is highly recommended and a must see. trust me. i watched it over and over again.

2010-05-15T03:38:00.000-07:00

Sepasang Kekasih yang Pertama Bercinta di Luar Angkasa // Frau ft.Ugoran Prasad

Direntang waktu yang berjejal dan memburai, kau berikan,
sepasang tanganmu terbuka dan membiru, enggan
Di gigir yang curam dan dunia yang tertinggal dan membeku
Sungguh, peta melesap dan udara yang terbakar jauh

Kita adalah sepasang kekasih yang pertama bercinta di luar angkasa
seperti takkan pernah pulang (yang menghilang)
Kau membias di udara dan terhempaskan cahaya
Seperti takkan pernah pulang, ketuk langkahmu menarilah di jauh permukaan
Jalan pulang yang menghilang, tertulis dan menghilang, karena kita, sebab kita, telah bercinta di luar angkasa

totally enjoyed this song. totally match with my music taste. totally admire this genius young woman who completely shows me about the real talent and creativity.
ooh may God bless her talent..

get her album, legally here: Starlit Carousel (Frau)

2010-05-01T18:29:00.000-07:00

.....
it's really been like running in a big circle,
and i haven’t finally arrived yet at the place i really want to.

i want to get a lost.
away.
i believe there’s another world
under the same sky
on the same earth.
the place i supposed to live in.

2010-04-27T06:05:00.000-07:00

An alter ego (Latin, "the other I")

is a second self, a second personality or persona within a person, who is often oblivious to the persona's actions. It was coined in the early nineteenth century when dissociative identity disorder was first described by psychologists. A person with an alter ego is said to lead a double life.
(wikipedia.org)

double life, huh?
i might have more. i guess..

2010-04-25T08:35:00.000-07:00

Ayumi Yamada; A third-year art student, age 21, specializing in ceramic arts. She is depicted as a beautiful young woman, who catches the attention from others. Yamada is deeply in love with one boy. She really only gets mad around him. Unfortunately, this boy doesn't return her feelings, asking her why she is in love with him and encouraging her to go find someone else.

"She is a cute, emotionally fragile young woman that just really needs to be held. It would be terrible if her bright blue eyes turned listless."

Mayama: I'm sorry Yamada.
.... hey you drooled.
Yamada: Mayama, I like you.
she’s not drooling. SHE’S CRYING, can’t you notice that? MORON.

-HONEY AND CLOVER

2010-04-25T06:59:00.000-07:00

Breath taking.

2010-04-23T19:30:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I hate when people are being so self-centered, selfish and arrogant.
Getting busy among themself. Don't give any sh*t about others. Careless!
What is so great about being like that? Who do they think they are?

and WTF happened with me lately;
vehemently criticize people around me

2010-04-18T23:49:00.000-07:00

we are always LOST IN TRANSLATION.

2010-04-13T05:20:00.000-07:00

Ohh I see,
I really am becoming a public enemy;
everything I'm saying or doing is wrong.
The worst thing is; I hurt people I love the most,
and now I'm scare when I look myself in the mirror.
stupid is, stupid does
...

2010-04-04T02:24:00.000-07:00

and now i'm spinning down into the weakest point of my life:

Mom and Dad,
i really want you to give me some recognition, so i tried really hard
but in the end, here i am like this again...
and today i can cry once, can't i?
let me just abandon myself to the pain for this one day only
then i'll shake it all off and stand tall again
after all, I'M YOUR DARING DAUGHTER
...

i can see my backyard through the window,
but i'm not going to play anymore
it's all over.

oh dear, you're slightly pathetic.

2010-04-02T00:55:00.000-07:00

She really is mentally sick. It's just like the way she is, always look like in a pain. She knows she has been smiling, but inside she's dying. She's been looking for the way home, a safe place,. Ironically there are nowhere to be found. So lost. She's tired of trying and sick of crying.

she's seriously need to be helped:
"Dearest God, please fix this horrible girl; TO STOP EATING HERSELF ALIVE!"

“She knows what its like to want to die; how it hurts to smile; how you try to fit in but you can’t; how you hurt yourself on the outside; to try to kill the thing that’s in the inside.” — Unknown

ou range.

2010-03-16T03:06:00.000-07:00

While the sun has already gone down, it leaves beautiful atmosphere, lovely colors and perfect mood. What a great short moment we are able to see! Moreover, the sky remains me of your embarrassed face, blush and gently turn red. I can't wait to see YOU again the following day!
*OU RANGE!

Oooh, the evening sky is warmly hugging me before the dark appears.

2010-03-15T17:15:00.000-07:00

girls, i really missed that warm night!
every single day, i wish we could do a lot of nonsense and lunatic stuff as we used to do.
if there any time machine, let's go back together and fix "it" all. HOPEFULLY!

remember this, "i'm feeling so grateful. you are the best i ever had."

2010-02-02T17:03:00.000-08:00

here i am.
crap! i'll never understand fashion and other stuffs related. idk, i often have a hard time trying to find something to wear, though there's nothing fit on my body, hell-yeah i'm not tall or model skinny :((. then i just end up with this outfit; sweater, jeans, and sneaker.
*poor me! i envy you guys who have a good sense of fashion.

Questions

2010-02-02T05:05:00.000-08:00

Where is your mobile phone? exactly i'm texting right now
Your dream last night? nonexistent
Your dream goal? build my own museum
The room you’re in? bedroom
Your hobby? adoring something beautiful
Where do you want to be in 6 years? whereabout?
Where were you last night? a place called HOME
What you’re not? an artist
One of your wish-list items? growing-up stuffs!
Where you grew up? Bandung, INDONESIA
The last thing you did? had my lunch
What are you wearing? PJs
Your TV? dusty
Your pets? don't have any
Your computer? work quite well
Your mood? arrghhh IDK
Missing someone? yes, yes, yes. Definitely yes.
Your car? i need a license first
Something you’re not wearing? legging
Favorite shop? is there any sale?
Your summer? nosebleed

Love someone? yes
Your favorite color? navy blue
When is the last time you laughed? just now
When is the last time you cried? i'm done